Energy Movement to the True Self

Awhile back I was starting to feel very stiff in my energy. Very one dimensional, even though that term isn’t technically right. Here is a better anthology to explain it. If you consider being fluid in your energy like the ocean. The water in the ocean has currents and moves around and itself very dynamically and free. Well I was feeling more like a river. Surrounded by solid banks that were keeping closed in and forcing me in one direction. I believe this came from falling into a spiritual rut so to speak. Everything had become too much of a routine. I decided that I should work on doing more energy movements to help break up the bank of the river.

First I sat down and did Water of Life. Feeling very energized and in a nice state of non-thought I stood up and started the energy movements. To begin with the feeling of the energy was like jello. I could feel my hands moving through it but it was not responding to me. It would let my hand pass through but it wasn’t moving. I kept at it and eventually it began to feel more loose. Let’s stick with the jello idea.

What would happen if you had a big bowl of solid jello and started to stir it with a stick?

It would start breaking a part and becoming more fluid, right?

As I persisted I could feel the energy beginning to move in small amounts right around my hands and the solid feeling with dissolving away. The energy was feeling more and more fluid as I continued. I was feeling very content with my progress and was thinking that I had done enough for now. Then my navigator kicked in and told me to push it further. So I did.

I stood still for a minute and really got feeling for my surroundings. Tool a deep breath put my hands out and began to turn pushing and the energy around me in a circle. About half way around my turn the whole room broke free. It was like I the jello had broken free from the bowl and was turning as one mass within it.

As I stopped my turn I could still feel it move around me. I took another deep breath and started to turn in the other direction. This time the whole room responded instantly. At this point in time I was dripping with sweat but it felt really good. Each time it did this I feel the radius of my influence expanding. From the room to the house to the yard. I began to feel very small in reference to the energy I was moving. That is when something unexpected happened.

There was a sudden shift in my perspective. Instead of my body moving and pushing the energy surrounding it felt like I was standing still and everything else was moving around me. Still feeling increased to the point that it felt like my body was even moving around me. It felt like there was a complete separation between the body and myself. I can’t really describe how it felt but imagine feeling like you are standing completely still but at the same time feeling your body moving around you. It was truly an amazing experience.

I brought this up with Dan Tanguay during one of our Star Reach calls. He help me understand and gave me some insight into what I had experience. He said that I had experienced my true self. That I got a taste of what the world feels like from that place. I had managed to slip past and shut down the I’s and the governor that was keeping this part of me from showing through. A step in the right direction.

More information on energy movements can be found on the DVD Warriors Wanted and the book Bending God.